Becoming An Intern

As of January 17, 2012 I am an intern for Fomite Press! I've been working for Donna Bister and Marc Estrin for a week now, delving into my first project, and immersing myself in the world of non-profit publishing. Feel free to check out their website! http://fomitepress.com/. My reasoning for applying for this internship in the first place was pure curiosity. As a senior in the Professional Writing program I will have to complete and internship for a class, but as a sophomore I thought I might as well get a head start and learn a little bit more about the world I want to become a part of in the future. 

Going into this internship I wasn't aware that it was fairly open. Donna and Marc want me to obtain skills that I want to learn, rather than something I may not be interested in. My main interest when it comes to the writing profession is copy editing. That being said, Donna and Marc sent me away from the interview with a book to edit! It's happened quickly and I was immediately overwhelmed, but now that I'm a week into the book and my edits are actually correct and "right on the money" I feel a lot more confident in my abilities to do a good job. Tim Brookes also offered his hand in my internship projects by proposing the idea of editing the books I'm given in my second-year portfolio class! There is help all around and I am so grateful for it! Thus far I have gotten through almost 50 pages, 150 more to go though!

As for the Champlain College Publishing Initiative, which I am also an editor for now, I am working on editing and co-authoring a book with my fellow peer Haley Kenyon. The book is about internships (how ironic!) It had been drafted last year and since has been left untouched. Our plan is to revamp the entire thing - strip all the interviews, unless we deem them useful, and rewrite the entire manuscript from scratch. It'll be a ton of work on top of Fomite editing and classes to earn my degree, but it will be worth it. This year has proven to be opportunistic! I may not be sleeping and I may constantly have my nose in a book, but the skills I'll be acquiring will pay off in the end! 

I've been neglecting this blog, as I usually end up doing after a few small entries. This is yet another effort to keep up with it! The details may be scarce for now, yet they will improve, I promise! Not that anyone actually reads my entries, but I like to think that if someone is, they find it interesting!

16 & Pregnant, Teen Mom, and Teen Mom 2

Since 2008 when the first season of "16 & Pregnant" aired on MTV, I have been an avid viewer of both "16 & Pregnant" and watching their stories continue on "Teen Mom" and "Teen Mom 2". The very first season of "16 & Pregnant" starred many young girls expecting the unexpected. As the years have passed by their children have grown and more girls are being featured on seasons 2, 3, and 4 of "16 & Pregnant". The girls from seasons 1 and 2 of "16 & Pregnant" got to continue their stories on "Teen Mom" and "Teen Mom 2".


I could be considered a junkie when it comes to all of these shows. I've seen every episode and I know every story. I'm sure many people follow their stories as well. They have Twitter, they have Facebook, they have fan pages, and they have websites. Like all people on TV they have stories written about them, both fact and fiction. Yet what has driven me to actually construct a well organized entry about these shows is something I realized just today. Before I really get into that I'm just going to talk about what I've observed over the years on the shows.

The most well known girls from the very first season of "16 & Pregnant" are Amber Portwood, Maci Bookout, Farrah Abraham, and Catelynn Lowell. These four girls are also featured on "Teen Mom". Watching them and their children grow from "16 & Pregnant" to the latest episodes of "Teen Mom" I have seen extraordinary transformations and not all of them are good. On "16 & Pregnant" all four girls were average teenagers. At ages 16 and 17, life hasn't even begun. By mistake entirely these girls ended up expecting their first child. Not in an insulting way, but all looked average. Farrah was a cheerleader from a well to-do family, Amber was tough and fun with a crazy family, Catelynn was sweet and triumphant, and Maci was a good student who rode motorbikes. They all feared what was to come. They had concerns about money, their relationships, their parenting, their children (of course), their living situation, and their futures. Yet as their stories continued on "Teen Mom" it was more apparent that in a way they had become dependent on the show.

To my knowledge, prior to completing their individual episodes of "16 & Pregnant" the girls were unaware that they would receive payment. Again to my knowledge, they volunteered to be part of a documentary series to show their journeys with teen pregnancy and motherhood, how it affected their futures, and how difficult it really was to grow up so fast. The purpose of the show was to bring awareness to how unglamorous becoming a mother at such a young age really was. I believe it takes courage to put yourself out there. I give them credit because I wouldn't. Now I understand this "documentary" series. Introducing us to 6 girls who are venturing into motherhood. Not a bad idea, sure. Good intentions. By season 2 of "16 & Pregnant" there were 19 girls. Season 3 featured 10 girls. The fact that there have been SEASONS of this "documentary" series is ridiculous. It becomes a reality show and the cast is growing. I stand by what I said, it takes extreme courage to put yourself out there in such a fragile time, but having season after season is silly. The show has lost its urgent message in my eyes. I find myself just wanting to see what happens next instead of taking in the valuable messages the show does provide.

These original four girls from "16 & Pregnant" Season 1 were average teenagers, far from being able to live on their own, pay bills, get an education, and pay for child care. By the time "Teen Mom" Season 1 aired, all girls were attempting, if they hadn't already achieved, to move out of their parents homes with their children. They were shown getting part time jobs after purchasing their own apartments or rental homes. Not to mention that their appearances changed. Most of these girls are frequently shown either going out to eat, buying and caring for pets, and getting their nails or hair done. Being paid to be documented is reasonable. If I were being followed around by a camera having my life shared with the world, I'd expect some kind of compensation. That's totally understandable. But it is simply excessive. Of course they are doing well by their children and giving them the lives they deserve, but in reality most teen mothers are not going to be able to do such things for their children. A majority of teen mothers remain at home with their families because they need them to help and cannot afford to live on their own. Maci, Farrah, Amber, and Catelynn are very lucky girls because they have been taken care of by MTV in the sense that they can be financially stable to support their children. Realistically, their lifestyles cannot be achieved by your average 16 year old teen mother.

As "Teen Mom" unfolded, the show seemed to steer more towards the relationship aspect of the girls lives. Yes, it is true that all of these changes will effect everyone. Relationships with the babies fathers will be tested, as will the relationship between the young mothers and their parents, and their friends. All are valuable aspects of teen motherhood that should be addressed. It isn't easy and having a child so young can really shake things up. And yes, the girls make it quite clear that they try and cure these relationships for the sake of their children. But now that the show is viewed as a REALITY show instead of a DOCUMENTARY series, which was its original purpose, these relationships simply become the focus of the show for its viewers. Everyone wants to see what will happen next. On Facebook for example, the pages for "16 & Pregnant", "Teen Mom", and "Teen Mom 2" frequently ask questions about an past of upcoming episode - questions such as "Do you think Chelsea and Adam will work things out this time?", "Should Maci and Kyle be thinking about marriage?". These questions do effect the children, but the focus is taken away from them. It is important to highlight how these young mothers grow as people and their developing relationships certainly contribute to this growth, yet the commentary and chosen footage direct the audience's attention to that aspect of their lives more than the development of their children. It is hard to say what this show should and shouldn't be. 


The development of "Teen Mom" from "16 & Pregnant" is interesting. Maci, Amber, Farrah, and Catelynn were not the only girls on the show. Two other girls named Whitney and Ebony were also featured. Though there lives were just as up and down as the others, the girls for "Teen Mom" were chosen based on popularity. The second season of "16 & Pregnant", as I mentioned earlier, featured 19 girls. Jenelle, Chelsea, Kailyn, and Leah were the girls featured on "Teen Mom 2". All had dramatic stories. Jenelle is troubled with a boyfriend who leaves after the birth of their son. Chelsea's boyfriend Adam is verbally abusive and neglects his daughter. Kailyn is the one who seems to be on a good path with boyfriend Joe and is very involved with his family. And Leah had twins after a one night stand and one month of dating with boyfriend Corey. These girls were chosen by popularity and it is interesting to see that season 2 was separated into two periods. Episodes 1-10 were featured in the Spring in February, March, and April. The other 9 girls' episodes were shown in October, November, and December of that same year. The highest ratings were during the first part of season 2. Naturally those girls would be selected to continue for the next show, "Teen Mom 2". As each episode airs it seems as though these girls' lives consist over never ending drama, which in some cases is probably very true. Yet it seems that trouble is made for the sake of the show.


I've read many articles, which I unfortunately cannot site because I've lost them in cyberspace, but friends and family of these girls have stated that at times things are staged or lead in a particular direction. A source close to Jenelle or Jenelle herself told someone that they had to stage her son Jace's birthday party after it had already happened because the cameras weren't rolling that day. Again, this is all hear-say, I could be wrong, but it isn't something that would be hard to believe. Reality TV is ususally almost staged or directed in some way to the point that reality TV isn't portraying "reality". We know that the cameras aren't always rolling. These girls have a day to day life and once in a while the cameras follow them; when they do it isn't surprising that a fight happens, or an event is held, or something that is very important in their stories happens. At some points it is almost safe to assume that certain situations are staged. Kailyn just happens to decide to file for child support on a day that the cameras were rolling, Jenelle's mom happens to find out she has been seeing Keiffer and a fight breaks out the day they are filming, Leah happens to be offered a job on the day they are filming. Yes, these things could have happened by coincidence, but the chances are slim that all of these life changing events would happen on the one day they were filming for MTV.


In all honesty I would love to hear from the girls what is it is really like to be filmed and what changes or influence MTV has on their stories and how they are portrayed to the public. I'd like all of my guessing to be answered, either to support my claims or discard them. The point I'm trying to make through this entire article is that these shows have good intention, but have been turned into an industry completely. They're probably all wonderful people, they're all growing up just like I am each day, and they're trying to do the best they can by their children. I was driven to write this because I felt as though it needed to be given some attention. I shouldn't be watching the show to see if Chelsea is going to get back together with Adam, or if Jenelle and her mom will fight again, or if Leah and Corey will be able to talk about their feelings, or if Kailyn and Jordan will end up together next Christmas. I should be watching the show to see how being a young parent will effect their parenting decisions and how life truly is to be a teen mother. I should watch the show to see how challenging it is to become a mother at 16, instead I am seeing young mothers who are somehow extremeley finacially independent and supporting themselves with no jobs or part time jobs. It is all far fetched.

This entry probably isn't finished yet. I plan to go back to it time after time to tweak things, get my facts straight, and make more connections, but for now I hope my message is clear. It was something I felt I needed to do for my own understanding of why I watch the show and care about what happens to these young mothers.

Army Man

A quick entry to express how much I love talking to Christian! Even if he is far away in Texas. His army helmet and little headlight look fantastic. Hope you end up near Burlington, because I miss your face mister!

Welcome 2012!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! IT'S 2012!

 

It was wonderful to bring in the New Year with Andrew! Last year was entirely different. Bringing in 2011 in Wellesley was fun, but no party can compare to sitting in a warm living room with people you care about and just talking to one another. I had different priorities last year and I feel as though I've made a huge change this year. I was in Sutton with Andrew at his sister Lindsay's house. Her, her husband John and her two girls, Grace and Ella, were the most gracious of hosts! Though Andrew and I have only been dating for a little under a year, his family has made me feel more than welcome and included. I couldn't love all of them any more than I already do.

We spent the night playing with the girls. The last time I saw them both was on July. They have grown so much! Grace is almost six. She's already a fantastic speller, better than I was at her age! Ella wasn't talking much at all in July and now she is a motor mouth. She couldn't stop telling us everything she was doing. And both the girls are infatuated with their Uncle Andrew. It was so incredible to see him play with them and help them learn. After an afternoon of play, Andrew and I relaxed with Lindsay and John until the ball dropped. I hadn't spent that much time with Lindsay and John, but it was wonderful to get to know them a little more.

Now that the New Year is here, it is time to put everything into action. Well...once I get back to school. Only because I can actually get to the gym there! My meal plan is all in order for the most part and the gym schedule is a go. The really tough part is to stick to it. I've done great with stuff like this before, but I end up getting lazy and giving in to temptation of food or laziness - or a combination of both!

This is healthy food. I like healthy food. I need to get the heck away from McDonald's, pasta, and frozen meals. They aren't helping me out. I can guarantee that I've gained about 10-15 lbs over the past year and a half. I'm only 4'll and that weight has only a few places to go and it has put itself in all the wrong places. I just want to tone it up and be comfortable with my body. I don't need to be super skinny. It's going to be a good new lifestyle I'm going to adapt. Along with that a new semester is starting up.

We have new Student Ambassador's starting in the office. The lot of us will get to train them up and welcome them to our team. It'll be great to get to know a few more people :-) I'll also have new classes and new challenges to face. I'll also be starting to work at the Champlain College Publishing Initiative to get some hands on experience in the "publishing" world. It'll be another year closer to graduation which is frightening and exciting all at the same time! We'll see how all of this goes!

A

New Years

With New Years around the corner, I think I should start getting my New Years Resolutions together! Not only compile the list, but make a plan to carry them out. That always seems to be my downfall. I've been giving a lot of thought to it recently more so than I have in years prior. Many things I've noticed about myself that I'd like to alter or just things that would make me happier - help me reach the ideal person I'd like to be. So far my list is short, but dense. Hopefully with the proper execution and support I can reach these goals and complete a New Years Resolution for the very first time :-)

1. Get fit

2. Eat healthier

3. Give my all to my schoolwork

4. Make sure people know when I appreciate them

5. Build a better relationship with my parents

6. Spend more time with my brother

So far, so good! For the past year and a half I must admit that I have put on some weight. Not to the point that I am overweight - to be honest I'm probably the expected weight for my height. Unfortunately, the expected weight is distributed in the wrong places. With a new semester starting up, my class times and work shifts are being moved around. Luckily, my classes don't start until either 11AM, 2PM, or 330PM. This leaves me with a lot of time in the morning to either work or take care of anything else I'd need to. I've worked out a schedule to go to the gym every other day during the week, three times a week for an hour. Along with that I've picked up a few work out materials to do at home either in the morning or before bed to really keep myself going. My new diet should also help me along. 

I've decided to go on a "no-carb" diet. I'll eat as few carbs as possible. I'll cut out bread - so no bagels, pancakes, waffles, sandwiches, pastries, pizza, anything with dough. That's a lot already, but also no pasta! Which is something I make a lot on a limited budget and limited time. I'm focusing on fresh fruit, veggies, a lot of salad, chicken, yogurt, all of that healthy stuff! And it's not that I don't eat that stuff now, it just isn't balanced enough. My mom ended up doing this a month or so ago and she dropped fifteen pounds in the first week! My goal isn't really to lose weight to be a twig, but just to keep it in check. Being under five feet and being muscular to begin with is almost setting me up to gain weight faster than others, so watching out for it and keeping it in check and keeping myself healthy is my goal!

Schoolwork. I've always struggled with keeping up and consistently doing my best. It's very simple though. This past semester I ended up with a 3.6 GPA - all A's and one B. I wouldn't say that's terrible at all, it's the best report card I've gotten since elementary school most likely. Ugh, that sounds awful! My goal is to continue on this path and do well. Now that I'm in a major I love and I find interesting I can apply myself. I'll keep it up!

I appreciate others more than I let on. I don't really do it on purpose either, not showing my gratitude as often as it happens. I am very gracious for everything anyone does for me, even if it is something so small like letting me borrow their notes for a class. Whenever anyone does something for me I am overflowing with gratitude even if all I say is a quick, "Thanks". Well, I'm realizing that isn't enough for me to feel expressive about how I feel. I plan on even being overly thankful to people, it'll make sure they know how grateful I really am. Hopefully I'll get a lot of smiles :-)

Ahhhh, my parents. A lot has happened throughout my life that has shaped the way I interact with my parents. As I get older my relationships with them have changed and grown in some ways, but become more conflicted in others. I suppose every person in college goes through this as they mature and become more independent. I really want to focus on enjoying my time with them and doing more with them when I am home. My parents do work a lot and my dad has my younger brother to focus on as well. Both of them are relationships as well, so they do have a lot going on. I hope that I can really make an effort to be with them more than I am now. It's important to me.

My little brother Ethan will be six years old on New Years day! Since he lives with his mother in NH, I'm only home now and then, and my dad lives in NH it has become harder to see him. I haven't seen him in a month now, which isn't that long of a stretch, but this summer I only saw him a handful of times and I was home for four months! I get really upset about it sometimes, but I never let on to my dad. This year I am going to ask more often to see him and really spend a lot of time with him so he knows who I am and we can get to know each other better. 

Phew! That was a lot. This list will go into action the second the ball drops. Here's to a New Year! 2012 should be a good one :-)

Silent Night

Life is hard to figure out. You can make all the wrong decisions and all the right decisions. There will be times when you're cruel and selfish - there will be times when you're kind and giving. At times you will hate yourself and at times you will love yourself more than those around you. If you haven't done all of these things then you haven't even begun to live. Allow your actions to speak just as loud as your words and be the best person you can be. You're never alone and the journey is never over. Learn something about yourself every day, whether it be bad or good. Love everyone. Each day is the beginning of something extraordinary - you just have to make it extra ordinary.

Holly Jolly Christmas

All I can do is sigh. I haven't been on this thing in over a month now! Maybe I should add "keep up to date with my blog" to my list of New Year's resolutions. That's a thought, huh? I can't kid myself. I'll have to accept that my blog entries are sporadic. Life always gets in the way. It's either work, school, or friends. I'm going mad! In the best way possible :-)

Christmas has come and gone in a flash! The holiday was wonderful. My mother and grandmother always seem to bump heads when it comes to how to run a household and keep up with house work. No matter the occasion they find a way to exchange sarcastic comments. It never puts a serious damper on the holidays - they're always saved by a great meal! We can't help but continuously chew therefore we can't talk to one another. My father, his girlfriend Pam, and her granddaughter Monique came down as well for a few hours. We opened up presents at around 2PM. My mom sang in her church choir that morning, so the day started a little late. Then we all sat down to a great dinner. 

Christmas is my favorite holiday. My family hasn't necessarily carried out traditions over the years. I suppose more so they're not as prominent because I'm becoming an adult and I no longer run down the stairs at 8AM to a mountain of presents - everything is a lot more laid back. Being with my family, no matter how crazy and loud they are, is a blessing. Even if I have trouble enjoying the feuds after the day is over and everything has settled I can sit back, laugh, and appreciate all the good out of the day. And there is always plenty of it! The best part of the day was watching my mom and grandmother's eyes bug out of their heads when they saw the pictures I had taken of all the Christmas decorations. Watching my mom open her Peanuts presents was priceless as well! Love and family are all that is important, whether the holiday's go as planned or not. They will always be there. Happy Holidays and a promising New Year to all!

A

PS. This will probably be the seventeenth time I've said this, but this year I will do my best to keep up with this blog for myself! It's therapeutic. Sometimes it's nice to just have a release.