We found this great service called Megabus. Usually the two of us would look into Greyhound, like everyone else does. Greyhound is $60 for a roundtrip ticket though! And it depends on where you go! I had checked what a bus to Boston would cost and it was up to $120 roundtrip! Megabus got us to Boston and will get us back for only $5. That's unheard of! It was worth a very long day.
Now I'm at home and it's surreal. I thought coming home again would be easy. Last year it was strange because it was the first time I was experiencing leaving for college and coming home for breaks and such. This time last year I was headed to Wellesley for the weekend and it's been so inexplicably strange. Sitting in my room last night made me experience extreme deja vu. I'm not sure why, but it really bothered me. I was at a loss and didn't know what to do. The whole situation from a few weeks ago during Classy Night has messed me up (congratulations asshole!) It isn't bothering me day and night, but it's been only a year since I started college and so much has changed. Some of it is hard to deal with on a daily basis and some of it I've been able to shrug off and move on. Being at home during this weekend is deja vu and I don't really know what to do. I just wish I could be back with Andrew in Burlington.
I go back and forth so much that I usually confuse myself. Being back at school this year has been very hard. Adjusting to having a lot less free time, working almost 24/7, and never getting a day off or alone has been brutal. Coming home this weekend was what I needed, but I am having a tough time actually enjoying and embracing down time. I'm more stressed out being alone in the quiet of my house than I was constantly on the run doing things for school or work. Now all I want to do is go back because whenever I come home I realize I have no plan in motion in MA. I have a job, I go to school, and I'm moving forward in every aspect of my life in VT. In MA I'm right back in high school with no job, not even going to school, and nothing to push me forward. I don't like that feeling. It makes me anxious and extremely upset.
This may sound like an upsetting entry, but I'm truly happy to be home and to have a break from everything. Tomorrow I get to see my dad and Ethan! It's great to be able to see my family in such a short period of time. I'm looking forward to going back to school, but for now I should just enjoy my time at home. I need to take in all the quiet and the tranquility while it lasts!
